Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Cry It Out

Sometimes Life punches you really hard in the stomach. The blow doesn't break any ribs but it definitely takes your breath away and leaves you standing there in pain. The only thing you can really do is cry and wait for the pain to subside. It doesn't seem like things can get any worse.

November is the month of thankfulness. All over Facebook, Pinterest, blogs, schools, and stores people are listing what they're thankful for and why. It makes it hard to be bitter and pitiful. Then again, Life isn't particular about when it punches. It doesn't avoid the holidays- I actually think it prefers them.

When something bad happens to me, I try very hard to laugh it off. We're on Earth for a short time and there's no reason to get upset over trivial, material problems. When a loved one is sick or injured I obviously have a different approach, but when it comes to "first world problems" I think it's best to dismiss them and work them out with a positive, easy-going approach.


Sometime, though, Life punches your more than once. It hits 2 or 3 times and there's nothing you can do about it- your hands are tied and you just have to take it. On the rare occasions that this occurs, the "positive, easy-going approach" just kind of crumbs and tears take over. The "why me?" and "this isn't fair" starts to form and escape from my lips. There's no outlet to exhaust or comfort to be had- all I want to do is whine about my problems and cry. Today- November 26th- it seems like all the fit is hitting the shan.


I've already cried. Now I want to curl up on the couch and never move. (Of course, I'll freeze to death since my furnace is dead.) When I have hurdles I mentally put them in the form of a To-Do List. As they're resolved, my brain checks them off, one by one. When the list grows and nothing gets checked off, I become extremely overwhelmed. Today is that day. When you throw money and expenses into the mix, my brain turns into a war zone. Welcome to the war zone, people.

I wish I could schedule home-ownership problems, legal issues, and medical emergency into my planner. If I HAVE to deal with them, it'd be nice to space them out. Obviously I can't do this. No one can. While I want to sit here and count my hardships, I know it's more beneficial to count my blessings. All I want for Christmas is some check marks on my mental list, preferably before I go mental myself.